Thoughts

Still my mind is thinkin...don know what n don know why.

Why exactly do we come on this earth? what is the purpose of running behind things that will never be ours? Why are we spending so much to look good when this body at the end is not ours? What is the state of happiness when in reality it lasts only for some time? Why are we attached to people when they will never be with us for lifetime?

We all come with our own destiny, karmas but where are the guardians who will guide us to the path. Its so difficult at times to understand what is correct and what is not. No one is their to show you the path, every one is busy in their life. When you try to seek help, you act as annoying character. Would god be kind enough to show us the direction with prominent evidence. I know he has assigned a master for him, I know m guided by spirits who has abundance of knowedge. Just looking out when will they stop this continuous churning mind and get it to a stillness. Stillness of no thoughts, stillness of clarity, stillness of loving, stillness of being kind, stillness of sharing, stillness of giving. I feel m running n just running but its never ending road and I am tired.

Its difficult to explain why m I worried when all I have is reasons to be happy. As i say key to everythings is 'Patience'. Everyone gets what they desire. I ll get my desire path and direction sooner or latter.

Wondering if i shuld post this....nevermind....m sur there are million minds whose state is similar to mine.....I pray at this moment everyone get their path....path towards goodness and love..

Thank you lord for being their always.....

Wish to Fly



Tracing our day to day stuff in words like going on, lets see, dragging it…isn’t that difficult. But some one going behind these words and giving reason for existence of these words is indeed not less then a miracle.

This is exactly what Taran did today. Who else would know you the best but your friends; who have seen you in thick and thin… Not loving your job, having fight at home, are not really example of crisis. Crisis is something else, m sure taran you would be able to catch what m trying to throw. Coming over that crisis and then cribbing is not that bad either. What is more important is keeping the faith in you alive.

Was just talking to taran on decisions that I made, honestly was trying to crib on decisions that I made…regret would be really harsh word…crib is still better. Of late I had started misunderstanding myself or rather had a doubt on myself; what decisions m I making. But thanks to taran she made me realize it’s not me but circumstances around me that trigger me to take step.

One of the most disturbing thought that was going in my mind was why didn’t I prepare for competitive exams and today I got answer for that. It was the pressure that I wanted to share at that point of time. Thinking my step 2 years back really makes me feel good about myself. It would be too early if I loose faith in me and decisions I take. M sure like every rough day this too shall pass. Its not that bad or else I would have left it long back but thing is that my heart is not happy. M not doing something m passionate about…I don’t really want to learn this or rather learning is not good enough to motivate me to understand it. Howsoever you term it. I know this is among the list I don’t want to do again. I ll wait for right time and right opportunity or rather right circumstances that triggers me to take the right decision. I am child of circumstances. Circumstances are one of the major reasons in building my identity. I have not chosen to be this but circumstances have made me like this.

I am happy; they drive best in you. But still for a change I wouldn’t mind leading a life where word ‘circumstances’ doesn’t exist.

I wish I could fly……………………………………..

Signing off from thought land....

God Bless!!

27th July 2011

Zindagi milegi na doobara or zindagi na milegi doobara...m still confused! Liked my majority but i fall in minority. Movie was damn slow. Characters were just floating! What was remarkable, was the stillness captured once you live what you desire to live for. The moments are well short but it truly lacks strong script. Nevertheless the bottom line is"we just have one life". I so very what to go to spain and explore it, the way it was show in movie..CRAP....i dont have money to go to igatpuri and i will live my dream. What is practical is enjoying bike ride in monsoon, eating butta, craving for panipuri and doing crazy things.

Life is indeed funny and out of my reach. When I leave office at 7 and reach home at 9, m not happy. But when when I leave office at 8.20 and reach home at 9, m thrilled...life is funny indeed. Sometimes I wonder m i really philosophical or my mind is fooling my heart to believe so.

Dont feel like writing anything more....thank u 27th july u have behaved like a good day...god bless u....goodnite...siyonara....

Take a break from 'Expectations'

As soon as I stop expecting that is exactly when you start fulfilling my expectations. It was you who taught me to expect and its me who is learning to have patience. 'Right time right place right things'....is perfect.....fits in any situation that you are thinking of...m sure you are smiling now. Jokes apart we have right time for everything, expectations kills that right time. To fullfill our expectations we start expecting small expectations.....we expect soooo much....take a chill pill and give expectations some break. Or may be a real long break. Trust me the happening without expectations either make you happy or you are neutral but no dissapointments. Easy said that done....

Key to expect less.....

1. Expect the most.....you will get dissapointment.....you will become sad n now forget everything n leave it up to GOD - first sign of not expecting from yourself....

Things starts happening because you had lost hope and faith in God is giving you joy....

Little things, little achievements brings lots of happiness....

2. Another mantra of not expecting is.....let go your happiness....

Sooner we start getting little joy we become more eager to live in that joy or increase that joy or sustain it forever......but rule of nature......after every sunday their is monday....after death their is life....after failure their is success....the lifecycle curve has a bent too....bottom line...no matter what the cycle continues....sunrise...sunset...sunrise..day....night...day....enough of example.....point should be clear now....

If you are getting happiness with little things....let go your happiness dont hold it back.....this will prevent sorrow to enter your doors....

You get something be happy come back to neutral.....streching happiness will take it to the peak which has fall....but living in happiness willl give you the true essence of it.....let go your happiness when it wants to take break from you....meanwhile you leave your hope n have faith in GOD....

Cycle Continues..........

Expect less….strive more…..

Be happy...enjoy sorrows…..

Don’t hold present because every future has new present stored….

Don’t run in present to achieve something in future….live in present because future is present….

We always get what we act on….we design our life….its in our hands to make life easy and live with abundance…..its all in the mind………..

Signing Off from lilltle corner where my computer breathes.....

God Bless....

Celebrate Life

It’s never too late to celebrate the glory of life, innocent smile of a child, divinity of night. A stress less laughter of a child, of an elderly person determines the happiness that is missed in the young minds. We waste so many years to realize what we have lost and finally when we wish to rejoice it is too late. Never let this happen when things are out of reach because things go no where, its we who run from present and land up no where..

The fact is past would never come and future doesn’t exist, reality is present which gives the answer of everything.

The other facet of present is death which is totally uncertain to us. Therefore what is certain should be respected and taken care off. Afterall we have got only one life and you never know if it is our last chance to smile and rejoice beauty of life.

Confusion

why r we confused???

this is d reason why we r nt happy,nt satisfy,blank,,,,,,,,

But why r we confused

-options

-lack of self analysis

-lack of proper guidance

-lack of positivity

n many more

Its basically because now we are aware of many options. spectrum has increased n we r not able to analyse wat we r in....bt also d reason is though d spectrum has increased bt mentality hasnt....if u lik painting u wil think tons of time whether u want it as ur profession n dat is where confusion comes in picture...which has gt endless solutions...rather jus gt into d field u lik n don create confusion bt here in picture comes expectations...we dont expect nything 4m us bt 4m d work....if i become a painter wat m i goin to gt...n again comes in picture is confusion...4 dis.. determination is solution n gt in top of dis profession; den cmes society wid all cons of being a painter n narrows d field by saying ‘cooperate rules d world’ n dere is no lif in being a painter....again cmes in picture is confusion....dis time its nt only confusion bt stress, strain n negativity n sadness to.....sadness came in picture because of oders..so best way is 2 gt rid of it is analyse urself n tell urself wat u wan 2 do inorder 2 b happy irrespectiv wat ur work is gonna do 4 u n abt society...dogs cant liv widout barking!!!!!But d fact is we still gt in wat we don lik probably we gt in sumthing dat society likes....who says we hav gt options actually we dont have options............

P.S. an article that i wrote really long time back wherein i was not aware of word doc n hence wrote dis in notepad...now u must realise how old dis article is...

Strange...

Today I created a blog to express myself....was just turning my diary pages to find something to post. Read my know stuff and realised how our thought process evolves. When people say we grow mature with the passing days, the statement sounds stupid...we feel we remain the same forever. But when you introspect your own self, you realise what you believed yesterday may not be your belief today.

Strange is human personality and strange is its mind. Its never stable, never same and never happy. All the while it keeps searching for something that never existed or may be it does...I dont know.

Sometimes I feel what we feel is that the reality....for instance is darkness really beautiful?
In dark neither we can see good nor bad; should we be happy that we are not seeing the ugly or be sad it is depriving us from beautiful sight....

In darkness we get sound sleep but it also gives us nightmares...
It doesnt show us path clearly but the silver line is visible only in its beauty...
It covers the light with its shadow and make moon reflects its divinity...

Darkness indeed is beautiful...it creates silence in air, magnifies the street, calms you down n bring stillness in one being...

Life is indeed strange with strange perceptions and delusions....we make it how we perceive it….we do evolve because the only thing that is constant is change….

Thoughts

Thoughts are pearls which are scattered without words,
Words are thread which put them together in the garland of wonderland...

A thought ever generated should never be wasted
As you never know the wonderland which is created
is replica of yourself that is being reflected...

Life is a beautiful journey...

which is wasted by cursing

the bliss of life is realised...

only when it is about to diminish

So smile and make everybody smile because life is too short to cry....