Tracing our day to day stuff in words like going on, lets see, dragging it…isn’t that difficult. But some one going behind these words and giving reason for existence of these words is indeed not less then a miracle.
This is exactly what Taran did today. Who else would know you the best but your friends; who have seen you in thick and thin… Not loving your job, having fight at home, are not really example of crisis. Crisis is something else, m sure taran you would be able to catch what m trying to throw. Coming over that crisis and then cribbing is not that bad either. What is more important is keeping the faith in you alive.
Was just talking to taran on decisions that I made, honestly was trying to crib on decisions that I made…regret would be really harsh word…crib is still better. Of late I had started misunderstanding myself or rather had a doubt on myself; what decisions m I making. But thanks to taran she made me realize it’s not me but circumstances around me that trigger me to take step.
One of the most disturbing thought that was going in my mind was why didn’t I prepare for competitive exams and today I got answer for that. It was the pressure that I wanted to share at that point of time. Thinking my step 2 years back really makes me feel good about myself. It would be too early if I loose faith in me and decisions I take. M sure like every rough day this too shall pass. Its not that bad or else I would have left it long back but thing is that my heart is not happy. M not doing something m passionate about…I don’t really want to learn this or rather learning is not good enough to motivate me to understand it. Howsoever you term it. I know this is among the list I don’t want to do again. I ll wait for right time and right opportunity or rather right circumstances that triggers me to take the right decision. I am child of circumstances. Circumstances are one of the major reasons in building my identity. I have not chosen to be this but circumstances have made me like this.
I am happy; they drive best in you. But still for a change I wouldn’t mind leading a life where word ‘circumstances’ doesn’t exist.
I wish I could fly……………………………………..
Signing off from thought land....
God Bless!!
